I love having written. I hate fucking writing

Says writer Tony Jordan (Eastenders, Life on Mars) and I know exactly what he means. It’s different depending on the kind of writing. Been doing a lot of marking recently. I like coming up with a pertinent, helpful phrase that sheds light, or discovering a kind way of explaining why something doesn’t work, without really hurting the writer. I have to write at least a page where I engage with my students and make constructive remarks that help them to get better. So it’s useful and sometimes my students say that an idea has been triggered after something I suggested. I used to secretly worry that the more time I spent marking and teaching, the more resentful I might feel that ‘creative’ time (better known as surfing and staring out the window drinking tea) was being eaten away. I’ve learned, however, that teaching creative writing does feed into my own work. Not in a wafty romantic way, more that I’ll read something I’ve written and mentally scribble: Could Do Better. Where’s the structure? Where’s the arc of the story? Go to the back of the class you useless twat. So yes the teaching is very constructive.

There’s an interesting piece in the Guardian where several writers discuss whether writing is a joy or a chore. I find it comforting that opinions vary wildly. Sometimes writing is like wading through concrete, or just boring. Other times though are magic; your brain flies open, you are unaware of hunger, thirst, or your chronically bad posture, your children’s huffy reminders that it’s Dinner Time are ignored. It’s just you in wondrous rapture as your fingers, brain and words fly along in perfect synchronicity. I think they call it being in The Zone. It doesn’t happen very often, or not with me, but when it does, it makes it all worth it.

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Lola, the Spayed Cat, has finally forgiven me for inflicting a shaved patch on her flank, and after two days of feline sulking and grossly overpriced gourmet cat food, she is snoozing in my in-tray. I daren’t move her. The mortgage application will have to wait.

One thought on “I love having written. I hate fucking writing

  1. I know what you mean about writing and hating it sometimes. I do freelance features for house and interiors mags from time to time and I love finding the properties(which usually takes quite a while), liaising with the photographer, visiting the owner and asking all the questions that readers want to know the answers to, such as where did you get that fab mirror/settee/rug/dining table etc. We chat, have coffee, occasionally a glass of wine, I dream of owning their beautiful clutter-free home complete with latest designer furniture or stylish flea shop finds then I come home with my pages of notes and have to write it up. The last bit is definitely the hardest and most boring!

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